Live life and life will live you back

I was sitting with 2 friends yesterday and they happened to question my dealing with few people around my life who were very close to me at one point of time. They felt as if my treatment of them in my current life was unreal and very shallow. But I genuinely think that the more we keep pain and grudges in our mind and heart for someone it’s not them who is suffering it is we. The moment we forgive them, the same instance we set ourselves free of all the shackles of emotions and unwanted chains of energy, which is binding us. Everyone comes in your life for a reason to teach you something. But if a person comes in your life again in whatever form, probably something more was left which as a human being you need to learn. Even a person you bumped into while going for a morning walk has bumped into you for a reason, maybe just to give you that smile. Even our family is our family because we fitted into that mould which God created for us for a reason. I am not asking you to forget the past, just learn from it and see how it has shaped your current life.  Maybe you don’t realize in your immediate present but wait for a few more months and I am sure you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. I see myself much more confident and beautiful person right now. I trust me and I love me. A year back I did not love myself. I liked me but never loved me. If someone told me he/she loves me I used to doubt their feelings because I could not trust my feelings for myself. A lot of times we let ourselves guided my pain is because of our desperation. Desperation to be successful in career, relationships, heath. We just want to do things perfectly. But what is this perfection? Who set it up? Society did. Stop letting yourself judged by societal norms because when something good happens in your life that is perfect for you not when society expects it to be perfect for you. So, stop getting desperate. Stop demanding too much from yourself. Stop putting too much pressure on yourself. Just take a few minutes out of your own life and breathe. Just Breathe. Let life live you. Do not force yourself on life. It will be beautiful. Human life is just amazing. We have two eyes, nose, ears, and mouth. We are living. What is better than living a human life? Just cherish yourself and life will cherish you.

Ridiculous Mumbai housing scene

Bombay a.k.a Mumbai is definitely not an easy city in terms of housing for single people not born and brought up in Mumbai. Somehow it seems as if its written on the forehead if you are single and from the entertainment industry you are bound to cause problems.
Why is it so hard to get one decent apartment? and by decent I really do not have expectations too high. Today I had an argument with the society manager because I was crazy backache caused by an injury. Here I am trying to sort my job and my health thing out, on the other hand the society people do not give a shit about you. Even though it is their fault, all I am worried about is I hope they do not throw me out of the apartment.
Can we not have a proper background check and police verification and have decent people stay in apartments rather than based on their marital status. Is it ok to have an estranged couple and wife beater/husband abuser stay in the apartment rather than a decent single person having a regular job and looking to have a family? I really fail to understand these hypocrisies.  Why is it that I have to fly my Mom all the way from a different city just to sign the lease for the apartment and verify I am legitimate. :(

The unfortunate truth about housing in Mumbai! Well as of now all I can hope is beg and plead the manager to give me apology for a mistake I have not done. Lets hope I keep staying in this apartment for a long time or atleast till the end of the lease period.

Cheers!

Peace or Pace?

What do I want from life?

Peace or Pace?

Raftar or Thahrav?

I guess being the person I am. I have always wanted peace but I always got pace and subconsciously maybe that was always true for me. Whenever my life starts getting settled peaced out and stagnant, God gives a push and makes it exciting, sometimes good exciting and sometimes not so good. I am purposefully not using the word bad because as I had mentioned in one of my previous posts. I am not using negative words in my life.

I woke up today and realized that I don’t have a job, cash balance is dwindling,  I don’t have a bf, I don’t have a great apartment, I don’t have my own mode of commute and my family is living in a far off city. I should be sad right but I am not. I am hopeful. I have amazing energy, great city in living in, decent new roommates, good looks, time to explore more about my other talents. I am not a perfect person but who is? I am a great human being, compassionate towards humanity, passionate for love and life, family oriented. What else is important than that? Nothing I guess. Rest everything is secondary.

I want pace in life. I want madness. I want to rise. I want to fall. I want to run.  I want to fly. But I just don’t want to stop.                

Encounter with number 11:11

Past few months I have been encountering a lot of 11:11 or 1:11 or 11:1. It seems freaky. I probably would not have noticed but I remember few years back one of my friends in the US told that he was seeing a lot of 11:11 and I think he was mad and his imagination is running wild. But I am coming across the same freaking thing. Whereever I see, clocks, phone time, laptop or tickets just everywhere.
I started researching and apparently it is a phenomenon with a lot of people coming across number patterns.

One of the article in Examiner specifies the following, "Our physical reality is composed of numbers and numeric codes.  At specific times and frequencies, our genetic memory (a.k.a. DNA) is programmed to “take note” of certain digital codes.  The pre-coded 11:11 sparks our DNA and stimulates the mind to a “higher awareness”.  Seeing 11:11 is an intense confirmation of being on the “right track” and of being in alignment with our ultimate life purpose.  The number 11 means balance.
Seeing 11:11 is a wake-up call that opens a direct channel to reflect on what you are doing at this moment and an invitation to move forward in spiritual awareness leading to the “Greater Reality”.  You may choose to use this channel for sending help, prayers, love and positive energy to humanity and all our living beings.  You may also ask for guidance or help in an area of your life.  Sometimes, you may feel more compelled to listen in silence for a disclosure or clarification regarding some aspect of your life.  This sequence can also be seen as a key to unlock the subconscious mind and our pre-programmed genetic memories.  We are spiritual beings having a physical experience, not physical beings searching for a spiritual experience."

Earlier I used to think maybe this is one odd co-incidence, but as days pass by the frequency has been increasing. Apparently there are several million people going through the same phenomenon. The wave says it is a positive time where some people make a wish or sit and pray and think at the positive intention.
I am going to start as well. Let us see what happens, maybe if it makes some good in someone else's life whom we love is a lot.

South Bombay

Sitting in South Mumbai (Breach Candy) to be specific, sea facing apartment of a friend of mine. Just lounging in her bedroom and looking out into the evening sun and gorgeous wind blowing and sun still not ready to set yet. How many people in Mumbai can really claim to find such gorgeous view and feel from their own personal bedrooms. 

I used to feel that South Mumbaites are a different breed, snobs etc etc  until I started hanging out with them, also until I have been I have been myself hanging out in this part of Mumbai, Bandra – South Mumbai.  In fact I have been meeting so many expats, travelers that this experience of not having a regular job has made a curious person out of me. I am liking meeting more and more people and taking their views on India. I do not know whether this new found interest is due to my excessive missing of US and hanging out and seeing people of different colors even in a café.

Starbucks in Taj has become my second hangout spot. People here are from all over the world, less noisy than a typical Indian.  Servers are happy and great and definitely not more expensive than CCD (yes it is the short version of Café Coffee Day or is it Coffee Café Day ;)

My outlook in life has been changing with more interaction with various people. I have always been a nomad at heart, would love to travel the world but not the way these travelers do living out of couches or random people’s apartments. I would rather stay at a 2 star hotel in my worse of financial constraint days.  But that makes you realize life really has given you more than you keep asking for and definitely by plate has a lot of scope for a lot more – better boyfriend, bigger house, fulfilling career  and yes guardian angels bring all these things on.