Peace or Pace?

What do I want from life?

Peace or Pace?

Raftar or Thahrav?

I guess being the person I am. I have always wanted peace but I always got pace and subconsciously maybe that was always true for me. Whenever my life starts getting settled peaced out and stagnant, God gives a push and makes it exciting, sometimes good exciting and sometimes not so good. I am purposefully not using the word bad because as I had mentioned in one of my previous posts. I am not using negative words in my life.

I woke up today and realized that I don’t have a job, cash balance is dwindling,  I don’t have a bf, I don’t have a great apartment, I don’t have my own mode of commute and my family is living in a far off city. I should be sad right but I am not. I am hopeful. I have amazing energy, great city in living in, decent new roommates, good looks, time to explore more about my other talents. I am not a perfect person but who is? I am a great human being, compassionate towards humanity, passionate for love and life, family oriented. What else is important than that? Nothing I guess. Rest everything is secondary.

I want pace in life. I want madness. I want to rise. I want to fall. I want to run.  I want to fly. But I just don’t want to stop.